Lord, Why Me A Pastor?Posted: June 19, 2012
Originally Posted Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Now, to go from a proud athlete to a water boy is dirt under the carpet low. No one goes to a football or basketball game looking for the skills of the water boy. Who will pay money to see someone wipe the floors from sweat when an athlete slides from tripping over another player? Who is dying to see the speed of the water boy bringing water to thirsty players? Who has a glorious Hall Of Fame Honor for how many dirty, stinky socks and jocks a water boy can wash; making sure the players have clean attire to practice and play in? No one is looking for that!
I believe no one looks for the one “serving behind the scenes” because nothing about “serving behind the scenes” is exciting. There is no honor at all in that type of service…except with God. Is this not the role of a pastor? Jesus says, “He who desires to be great must be the greatest servant of all.” And being a pastor is water boy work!
If you are looking to be a pastor for any recognition, shame on you! Looking to be known as a pastor for outward recognition and honor is equivalent to someone desiring to be a water boy for cool points! When one pursues the pastorate for personal respect, you will see clearly that it will not last long. The reality is that “washing dirty socks and stinky jocks” will reveal a lot about your heart and motives for God!
Speaking of dirty socks and stinky jocks, this is the second thing I wonder about being a pastor. Why in the world does God call me (or anyone) to help others with their dirty socks and stinky jocks? I see clearly that I don’t deserve to be cleaning or helping anyone because I stink and need cleaning myself! “Oh what is man, that you take thought of him? And the son of man, that you care for him?” – Psalms 8:4 God uses flawed people to help flawed people.
The only hope and encouragement I have in fulfilling this call of pastoring His people, is His voice which was spoken to me years ago as a college missionary, “Feed My sheep.”
This is all I have…His voice.
Somehow in His great wisdom, He wants to use me this way. This blows my mind away! I know He doesn’t desire me to pastor others because I was the smartest, most committed, decisive, dependable, reliable, or faithful friend. He desires to use me in this way; in the role similar to a water boy, serving behind the scenes in prayer, in the word, and in relationships.
Oh my my my…may I be found faithful to this lowly but great responsibility of pastoring His people.