Will God Be There To Meet With Me?Posted: April 30, 2012
Originally Posted Monday, November 7, 2011
The title says it all…and has been a fear of mine lately….whenever I attempt to start my mornings seeking the Lord. For years I’ve been taught to start my day with Jesus through commands in the Bible (Matthew 6:33- Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness…) and examples (Jesus…Mark 1:35…Early in the morning while it was still dark, He departed into a solitary place and there prayed).
But I’ve noticed, lately, the hesitancy of getting up early to meet with my Lord. It’s hard to get up early in the morning and feel like the Lord didn’t meet with you after seeking Him through prayer and reading His word. “I could’ve been asleep a little longer,” I would say deep down in those secret places no one knows about.
Then His Spirit revealed why I didn’t meet the Lord with anticipation…I had an expectation of “how I would feel” when I would meet with God, rather than believing and knowing God wants to meet with me, even when the feelings aren’t there. One depends on the emotions and the other is already knowing without a shadow of doubt, that He is near.
I’ve had some experiences with God where I would be in tears of joy because of His presence. There have been times when it would seem like the Scriptures were “coming off the page”. There have been times when it would seem like God didn’t say anything. I prefer to have “those feelings” I admit…
The reality is that God promises (all over the bible) His presence to His children when they seek Him (Revelations 3:23, Psalm 145:18, Jeremiah 33:3, Matthew 7:7). Yesterday, one of our Oversight Pastors shared with me the importance of relying on the promises of God in our time alone with Him. “Zo, His promises are enough in knowing He is there with us when we meet with Him in His word. If the feelings of great wonder and awe don’t come, that’s fine. Now God has given us feelings and they’re not wrong or evil…they’re good…because God has given them. But our faith isn’t in our feelings alone, it’s in the person of God and in His promises…He is faithful.” I felt like a huge burden of relief dropped off of my back when he shared that.
Oh I praise God for how He knows what we need when we need to hear it! I couldn’t wait for the next day to meet with God because He was going to be there with me!
I also had a sense of sorrow for reducing my time with Jesus to just the feelings determining whether or not He was with me. I asked the Lord to forgive me.
Please know that our Lord Jesus will be there when we call on Him in truth…that’s a promise!